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[ 06.20.04 ] |
my family went out to eat lunch together at local pizza hut. it was really lame but we never had lunch together ever since i was on elementary school, so it was kind of amusing.
my eyes are watering. and my nose running.
sigh. i hate having a flu.
final exams start tomorrow. i have a couple assignments to finish before its due. i regret i never was a neat person.
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[ 06.19.04 ] |
today is my little brother's 15th birthday;
he is the youngest in the family and will always be no matter how big and old he grows.
and today is my 9 months anniversary. we will go out tonight and drink wine. how amusing.
maybe i'll wear some make-up or something, or not. i dont know.
what is so special about anniversary or birthday? i thought death and birth are rather cool. but then i'm just being sarcastic.
it's been a tough and exhausting week. i'm having a flu.
my god, i need some rest, the whole time, all the time, everytime.
(i like my current layout)
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[ 05.27.04 ] |
( brown )
you told me to stop crying because it hurts too much,
sometimes it gets a little deeper under the skin.
you said everything will be alright,
but things are never enough and go too slow.
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[ 05.27.04 ] |
(music) the vines; TV pro
the city rained today, under the yellow sun. i was so asleep this morning, i didnt want to wake myself up until dawn. please just let me go to sleep sleep...sleep.
(i got my period. oh so relieving...)
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[ 05.18.04 ] |
sometimes i feel like i'm not solid, i'm hollow.
there's nothing behind my eyes.
i'm negative of a person.
it's as if i never thought of anything. i never felt anything.
all i want is blackness
blackness and silence.
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[ 04.21.04 ] |
and then it is all becoming nothing. monotone drink habit & never ending sex drive.
i lost interest in everything else.
i'm pretending to be someone.
i wish you would just stop me.
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[ 02.29.04 ] |
who am i fighting for? you, me or us?.
i hate having arguments with you. you know it is making me sad but we keep on disagree on everything i do. i will give up my job if it is making it all much better. you dont have to feel neglected again. and i will 100% support whatever things you want to do.
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[ 02.15.04 ] |
what am i searching in this world? what am i trying to find in this life?
wanting, needing...
how many more life i have to live for every seconds, hours, days and years until i have my death?
i am numb. i cant think.
is there any chances?
i love you
i love you
i cant lie.
the past leave us in pain. i guess it's just how things go.
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[ 01.23.04 ] |
you laugh because i am different, and i laugh because you are all the same.
heh yeah, fuck off.
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[ 01.23.04 ] |
anyone seeing korn?
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[ 01.17.04 ] |
si bobz. cross processing.
taman karawaci. november 2003.
well so i am going to take a shower now and leave. i'm not going to drink tonight. i'm trying. .. ... i just need a vacation.
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since this journal is basicly about my inner self and my inner thinking. normally what i have to say is pretty much for myself.
if you have anything you want to ask about what i do, what i am, etc.
any questions, i'll be ready to answer.
so anyone?
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